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rawr. Not the best few weeks for Andrew. The weather is gradually getting more and more like Boston, and though the past few days have been quite nice, I do notice my mood getting worse as the weather cools and rain starts falling.

Part of me keeps on wondering "why am I here." I mean, I'm very grateful to be at this school, with so many opportunities and few worries (compared to much of the world). But still, I really feel like I'm just stuck in this routine--that my classes borderline meaningless and that I'm working hard each week simply to get to the next. I guess I see college as yet another step before I get to do "real" things, and not as something that should be enjoyed in and of itself. The novelty and excitement of the new school year has definitely worn off and suddenly I am reminded loudly why I wanted desperately to graduate in 3 years. Arg.


In happier news, I'm headed off to China in a week for a FACES (forum for american-chinese exchange at stanford) to help put on a conference and learn what the conference is really like, since I'll be fully in charge of hosting the conference at Stanford in the Spring. This will be my first time there, and I'm pretty stoked. At the same time, I'm mildly terrified at the prospects of missing an entire week of school, especially since the material is getting ridiculously difficult in a few classes and I'm already struggling to grasp it all; missing a week sure won't help. But hey, the decision has been made and I can't really regret it now. Plus, in 20 years, I'm sure I'll remember this trip to China far more than I will the B/whatever I end up getting in a few classes.

I'll try to update semi-regularly in China....let me know if you guys want something from there; I don't know how much time I will for shopping but I can try. And no, Daniel, I don't think I can bring back a Chinese girl for you, even though I know you love them. Sorry.